Is there a God – Who is God?

The question of God—Who is God? Does God exist?—has been a persistent thread in everything I’ve written and contemplated. It is a question that tugs at my thoughts, lingering as one of the deepest mysteries of existence.

I understand the agnostic perspective: the belief that the existence of a god or a higher power is unknown and unknowable. But for me, there is a belief in a source—a fundamental origin of all that exists. While I don’t believe this source directly created me, I believe that whatever did create me ultimately stems from it.

So, what is God? Is God a being? Does God have a gender? These questions lead me to this: I don’t know. But I believe that God cannot be confined to the notion of a being or boxed in by gender. The source I call God is far greater than the image of an old man on a throne, flanked by the devil on one side and Santa Claus on the other.

As humans, are we unique in questioning our own existence? Perhaps. This relentless curiosity about a supreme power weaves through my writing and resides in my mind, always inviting reflection. I cannot ponder my own existence without also contemplating its ultimate origin—the alpha and omega, the source of all energy, the beginning and the end.

I practice Christianity and attend a Christian church, but not out of unshakable faith. It’s more about adapting to my environment. As social creatures, we often align ourselves with the dominant culture around us for stability and community. Living in a predominantly Christian society, I raise my children within this framework while filtering what they learn. If I lived in India, I might practice Hinduism; in China, perhaps Taoism.

I believe that most religions share common threads: fostering community, striving for self-improvement, and encouraging love for others. These are admirable principles. However, human beings inevitably corrupt aspects of everything we touch, including religion. As a parent, I take responsibility for filtering what does not serve my children’s growth or understanding.

Debates about God’s existence are endless. Some argue God is real; others say God is a myth. Many proclaim that their god is the only true one. I am not part of that debate. For me, there must be a source of it all. But my belief, like anyone else’s, is ultimately an opinion.

I choose to live as if God exists. I choose to nurture a personal relationship with this divine source. I choose to believe that a part of God resides within me and that we are inseparable.

In the end, each person must make their own decision. One thing is certain: our understanding of God evolves over time, shaped by our experiences and reflections.