Epiphany

Life seems to go-on, even when we are not ready to move-on.
I feel that I live on my previous actions, future actions, yet never my present actions, unless I am simply boasting.

It is time to get back on the horse and continue the pathless journey.
Many excuses there are of why not to go on now or why shouldn’t I go just yet.

Many ifs, ands and buts, yet in them there is a deficit of action.
Action to me is life, it’s exactly what I forget at times.

I try to live on previous actions and future actions, and then when I get my epiphanies like this one, I realize there is no action living in such a way.

Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. I’ve read and heard those words throughout my life.

Never in my life was I aware of how much truth those words carried.

Although I am not sure if I desire anything out of life for the future, or even if I should.
I walk aware in intent. Not always does it work, yet I walk aware in intent.

Too many times I feel like the mouse in the wheel… using up lots of energy, heading nowhere. Using up energy in making and standing by my excuses perhaps?

Who am I? Who cares?
Not I.

I is not anything, I is incorrect. I is made up. An optical illusion perchance?

Should I strive to be a great philosopher?
No.

Should I even want to be a philosopher or a “wise man”?
What is all that?

Well let me see.
Philosophy – The term philosophy comes from the Greek word Φιλοσοφία (philo-sophia), which means “love of wisdom” to love wisdom or less commonly “friend of wisdom”. Many ancient Greek philosophers distinguished the desire for wisdom from desires for material things, vices, and the satisfaction of bodily desires.

Wisdom is the ability, developed through experience, insight and reflection, to discern truth and exercise good judgment. It is sometimes conceptualized as an especially well developed form of common sense.
Wikipedia –
Honestly I am afraid that the whole label regime is harmful in many different ways.

So, should I even want to be a philosopher or a “wise man”?
No.

Get back on the horse.
The horses name is action.
Action is life.

What’s the meaning of life?
Action, experience, learning

What’s the verb of life?
Living

What does living entail?
Love, passion, lust, pain, lost, happiness, sadness, abundance, ominous need.
All of it! Please add-on…

Will I leave anyone behind if I get on my horse?
I have…
Odds are that I will, if not now, later…

Is this part of life?
Yes.
Does it have to be this way?
No, not always.

No matter what I do or don’t do,
Life is going to go on.
To be ready to move on is not the same as to move on.

To move on is action,
To move on is life.

Life is change, change is sweet.
Change is life.
Life is me.
I must live.