The Posture of the Seeker I have tried, as intentionally as I know how, to enter every situation with a particular posture—one I often visualize as an infinity symbol. One side of that symbol represents adding value; the other represents learning. Wherever I go, with whomever I encounter, I ask myself two questions: How can... Continue Reading →
4th Book – The Two Within – Ego, Spirit, and The Question of Who You Are
https://a.co/d/iP3EF1U “I am not the body I drive.I am not the story I repeat.I am not the fear that tightens my chest when I forget.I am the space where forgetting happens.” “Belief borrows, but knowing remembers.” There was never a fall—only a dream of separation.Never a war—only misunderstanding.” “Belief is powerful, but it is also... Continue Reading →
The Two Within in a Poem
I thought I was dividedlight on one shoulder,shadow on the other,a war between heaven and bone. I learned the names early:right and wrong,good and evil,should and shouldn’tand I lived inside the echo of them. But somewhere between breath and silencea quieter truth remained,unchanging,unimpressed by my fear,untouched by my stories. One voice chased.The other waited. One... Continue Reading →
Introduction to my New Book, The Two Within – Ego, Spirit, and the question of Who You Are
This book is an invitation to look inward. Throughout these pages, I will often use contrast—polar opposites, inner tension, light and shadow—not to divide, but to reveal. Perspective changes everything. When we view the same truth from different angles, understanding deepens. My goal is simple and profound: to help you recognize the power that already... Continue Reading →
I Am that I Am
The I Am Every great book of this kind, every deep conversation, every true meditation, is ultimately pointing in the same direction: back to your true Self. In the book of Exodus, Moses asks God, “Who shall I say sent me? Who are You?” And God replies, “I Am who I Am.” In the original... Continue Reading →
2025 into 2026
Over the past few years, I set and achieved some ambitious goals. I pushed boundaries, stretched what I thought was possible, and took real satisfaction in meeting—and often surpassing—those targets. But as I look back on this past year and even into 2024, those lofty, outward-facing goals seem noticeably absent. Part of me wants to... Continue Reading →
Silence and Reaction
We live in a world where true listening has become rare. Most of us enter conversations already preparing our response instead of receiving what is in front of us. Our minds race ahead, forming conclusions, defenses, explanations—anything but presence. This habit leads us to respond too quickly. And by “too quickly,” I don’t just mean... Continue Reading →
Authenticity vs Methods
Authenticity and the Pathless Path Authenticity is the compass of the soul. It is the quiet, steady truth beneath all noise, beneath all teachings, beneath every belief system we encounter along the way. There are countless paths in this world—religions, philosophies, methods, rituals, teachers, gurus, traditions old and new. Many of them carry wisdom. Many... Continue Reading →
The Illusion of Separation
Good vs Evil, Should vs Shouldn't Good, bad, should, shouldn’t—these are concepts, ideas, and mental labels. Even good and evil are frameworks the human mind invents in its attempt to categorize experience. They help us navigate the world, but they are not reality itself. Beyond all divisions, beyond every judgment we attach to anything, there... Continue Reading →
Questions and Wisdom
Judge a man by his questions rather than by his answers. Voltaire Jesus, Socrates, Buddha, Lao Tzu, Confucius, Rumi, the Zen Masters, the Rabbis of the Talmud, Native Elders, and nearly every wise person before us spoke in stories, riddles, and questions. They didn’t hand out answers — they invited awakening. And isn’t it true... Continue Reading →
The Dance Between Knowing and Being
The psyche, the mind, the soul—these are not separate from the organism we call the body. They move as one living unit, two expressions of a single reality. When one suffers, the other contracts. When one grows, the other expands. To pretend the mind and the body can be developed separately is to misunderstand the... Continue Reading →
Coincidences vs. Synchronicity
I read and listen to many non-fiction and spiritual works — ideas drawn from a wide range of cultures and philosophies. So naturally, I’ve come to expect the occasional coincidence: hearing or reading something strikingly similar to what I had just written or spoken about the day before. Yesterday, for instance, I wrote about the... Continue Reading →
The Vehicle and the Source
The Flesh and the Soul My flesh belongs to the universe;my soul belongs to God—or perhaps, it is God. Think of a car. It might be a luxurious machine or a modest vehicle—something admired or something barely noticed. Yet regardless of its form, its fate is the same. At the end of its journey, it... Continue Reading →
Self Responsibility in order to Regain Control
Self-Responsibility vs. Dependence on OthersI’ve often reflected on what I call the two within — the seeming duality we live by. Yet, at the core, I believe there is only love within us. The concept of two — love and fear, light and dark, God and devil — may simply be something we’ve created to... Continue Reading →
Who Am I? Who Am I Not?
The Labels We Wear I am a father.A husband.A son.A brother.An uncle.A Christian — one among forty-five thousand denominations.A leader.A follower.A neighbor.A citizen.A human being — one among 8.7 million species on this earth. But I am not any of these labels.At least, not all the time. Not consciously. I am not a father when... Continue Reading →
Heaven and Hell
The Two Within: Heaven and Hell We’re told that God gave us free will — yet if we fail to do what we’re told He commands, we’ll be cast into the fires of hell for eternity. Talk about an oxymoron. It’s far easier to lead through fear than through inspiration. Fear is quick and efficient.... Continue Reading →
The Child Within the Shell
The Two Within Are we children wrapped in adult skin?Sometimes it feels that way — as if the years only added layers of protection, not transformation. Beneath the practiced calm of our faces still lives the wide-eyed child who once wondered where the stars went during the day, who cried easily and loved without hesitation.... Continue Reading →
Beyond Duality
An introduction to the two within I’ve always wrestled with the idea of dualism—the notion that everything exists in two opposing forces: God and the devil, Adam and Eve, spirit and flesh, light and dark. It’s been a lifelong tug-of-war in my heart and mind, as if my soul remembers something my consciousness has forgotten.... Continue Reading →
For Goodness’ Sake
From childhood, we are conditioned to act for reward.A gold star, a ribbon, a passing grade, or the approving smile of a parent — these become our first currencies of virtue.We learn that goodness is something to earn, not something to be. As we grow older, the currency simply changes.We work hard out of fear... Continue Reading →
The Secret Sauce of Endless Energy
There are peculiar things in life I’ve always found fascinating. Take heartburn, for example: I’ve never experienced it. I’ve never taken a Tums, and honestly, I’m not even sure I’d recognize heartburn if it happened to me. In my industry, physical exertion is part of the job. Working 15, 16, even 17-hour days isn’t unusual.... Continue Reading →
I Am Certain of Nothing
I have opinions on many subjects, but as I grow older, I find myself drawn more and more to studies of religious practice, particularly Christianity. When I was younger, I thought I knew a lot. Now, I know that I know very little—perhaps nothing at all. I strive to be a good person: a human... Continue Reading →
Where Focus Goes, Reality Unfolds
Where Focus Goes, Reality Unfolds I’ve heard for years the saying that we create our own reality, that what we focus on is where our energy flows. Optimists see the good, pessimists see the bad — but after decades of hearing these phrases, reading them in countless books, and reflecting deeply, I’ve finally realized just... Continue Reading →
The meaning of life
There is an age-old question that no voice, no book, no religion, and no philosophy has ever been able to answer for all: What is the meaning of life? As human beings, it seems almost impossible for us to simply be. Our very name insists on it—human being—yet we live as human questioning. We seek... Continue Reading →
The Itch to Know
Yet another inner struggle I often wrestle with is the choice between settling into life’s given narrative and resting there… or surrendering to an unrelenting thirst to question, to seek, to know more. Sometimes, I even feel a quiet envy toward those who have made peace with the story handed to them—those who are content,... Continue Reading →
Beyond Sin: The Divine Nature of Human Experience
Sin vs. Experience The concept of sin has been a constant companion throughout my life, hammered into me from childhood and throughout my journey as a Christian. Sin—what is it, really? I’ve been taught to see it as this evil seed embedded deep within our very nature, almost woven into our souls. Sin, in the... Continue Reading →
The space between doubt and Faith
Doubt vs. Certainty Throughout the years, I’ve had people look at me sideways for expressing doubt when it comes to religion. Some were bothered by it, as if doubting meant disrespect. But for me, doubt is not only natural—it’s necessary. I’ve never seen doubt as weakness. I’ve seen it as the beginning of true faith.... Continue Reading →
Faith vs Knowledge: The Inner Weighing Scale
Faith, to me, is to the spirit what knowledge is to the flesh. Faith is that sacred whisper within—the unseen force we lean on to heal, to create, to move forward, to transform, to simply keep going when we can't see the full picture. Knowledge, meanwhile, is the trusted tool of the flesh—it’s what the... Continue Reading →
The Trinity
The Trinity Within I hold a different view on the Trinity—not as something distant, external, or institutional, but as something deeply intimate. To me, the Trinity is not merely a doctrine, but a mirror of our inner world: the Father, the Son, and the Spirit—all one, and all within. The Father is the guide. He... Continue Reading →
Welcome to If I Know Better
I’m Jimmy Perez — a husband, father, storyteller, and seeker. I’ve written three books so far: Adam’s Journey, If I Know Better, Why Am I Not Doing Better?, and most recently, The Soul University. But titles aside, what I truly am is a man trying to make sense of this life — spiritually, emotionally, and... Continue Reading →
Sensing the Unseen: Where Spirit and Flesh Collide
What if emotions are to the soul what touch is to the flesh We often say that we are spiritual beings having a human experience, and perhaps nowhere is that more evident than in our relationship with emotion. For while physical pain can be sharp and immediate, emotional pain often lingers deeper, carving itself into... Continue Reading →
